Sunday, June 26, 2011

Force without Resistance

Three days have passed from my leaving the house behind. The days leading up to then were full of special moments. I talked with many people, saying goodbye to them and the place I have called home for so long. The last hours before I left were magical in the way everything fell into place. As endings go, it was a good death. In visiting close friends since then I have gotten much support and encouragement for setting out on our next journey. Getting ready to walk is now my focus, clearing out my "house" now accomplished, and when I am sure some necessary paperwork is in order I will launch happily. Resistance to this final preparation is futile, a calm force of determination will keep the world rolling. Patience is a lesson, a way of living.

Wednesday, June 22, 2011


My door has been open since I lost the keys. All the miles I have walked and the many States I have traveled in and I dropped them in the grass somewhere in Kansas while walking around the block. Sure, it was a three mile block and getting a new key for the van was costly but the key to the house has remained gone.
The house was closed to even sunlight for a long, long time so I have left all the doors and windows wide. All of my things are packed into the van. I washed the blankets for the last nights' sleep on my bed. The nice folks who are buying the house have told me over and over not to worry over leaving the last few things when I go for which I am grateful. I was talking to a friend on the phone and at the end of the call she sincerely said, "Congratulations for your homelessness." I feel good about it too. After I spend a few days doing maintenance on the van I will continue our walk for diabetes awareness in the lower forty eight. though it took all of Spring to prepare I have accomplished much. Grateful to be able to give things to friends they can use while having family to keep my tools and boxes of family photos etc so I may walk and have a home at four close friends who have offered whenever it may be. I feel I am loved, and I love them all.
Thursday at four I will meet with the owners and settle this chapter, lesaving this house for my new home, the World Wide Open.

Monday, June 20, 2011

three days 'till I am Home Free

Three Months since I began to leave. Every day giving away things,just things. Focusing on an empty house. A Home Free. Three more nights to sleep in the bed I'll leave behind. For many weeks I have been saying goodbye to people, places and faces I have known since I was a child,to the inner workings of the city. How it has changed and grown in these decades. There are buildings now where the woods once were. Paved paradise and put up a dormitory. The back way is now a four lane thru-way. The UPS jet engines drown out the hawk recording that plays from atop the city com-tower that repeats every three minutes to keep the birds from nesting. Even in the depths of winter it chirps and screeches. It finally has worked on "this" bird...

I know I haven't been writing much lately. I have been spending my time being quiet while I prepare. That time will be over soon enough. Maybe I'll start making sense.